So Grateful
Dec 20th, 2010
With all of the hustle and bustle of the season, it’s easy to lose some of your holiday spirit. Yesterday, I was reminded of how lucky I am to have my beautiful and healthy family around me. I was reading a fluff piece msnbc.com had posted about your increased chance of getting dumped right before Christmas. It was a poorly written article but it made for decent nap time filler. I have been sort of obsessed with reading the comments left on articles lately. It’s an extremely entertaining way to burn some time and get your daily dose of crazy. But yesterday I found an exception. While most people were trashing old lovers Jerry Springer-style, one woman left a very sentimental comment and I wanted to share. It made me cry.
Many years ago I lost my husband just before the holidays and nothing could help ease the pain of him not in my life. Having to bury your childhood sweetheart buries a part of you. I voluteered to help a homeless shelter feed the poor and it took me out of the pain for the time but when I got home it was back to the cold pain.
As Christmas drew near unacknowledged by me, a storm hit. It knocked down the little pine tree we had planted in the fall of that year and it seemed to be the final straw for me. I sobbed until I could no longer cry. Suddenly I remembered that the last thing we bought was Christmas ornaments on the weekend before his passing.
I dragged the little tree into the house and grabbed our decorations and decorated that tree. I stood back and smiled at the beauty and knew I was going to survive.
Sometimes we have to reach outside ourselves to find the joy but no matter the situation it waits for you to discover it.
*Have a wonderful week!*
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